Healing from the Horror - Mind control survivor finds healing after the walls of amnesia come tumbling down

In 1977 when I was in my late 20s and leaving my second marriage, I decided there might be a problem with me. That's when I began therapy and learned to deal with issues such as properly expressing anger, not being so defensive, and why I was so afraid of my father. I married my current husband (we've been married since 1980) and continued in therapy to help improve my relationship skills. I came very close to getting my memories back around 1990 because of a series of nightmares I had about my father.

Instead of the memories, though, I made a startling emotional discovery about myself that I thought was the answer to my fear of my father. That discovery made me think I was "cured." In other words, I shut down and rejected further therapy. In 1996 I decided I was going to write a novel - a love story with a psychological twist. The main character was going to have my emotions and the story was going to reflect how a woman with a history of abuse in her background has to struggle to make a relationship work.